16 May 2012

What a strange feeling it is...

when you bump into someone you knew from another age, another time of life...and what if that person had sought to harm you, and almost destroy your career?

How does one react? and it's worse if it is the person's child, whom you had taught and who is now grown, is the one who affectionately comes up and greets you? She does not know what her parents did, and so excitedly asks you to speak to them, for she knows you as colleagues of her parents.....and you know you just cannot bring yourself to speak to them just then....you need time to make the adjustments in your head and heart, you need to find a suitable response without hurting the young person in front of you when images of her as a child keep dancing in front of you and superimposing themselves on her face... .You know it's foolish to allow the grudges and hurts to surface because the mind with great alacrity pulls them out of the depths of your heart and holds them up; it allows all the associated feelings to flood in; it creates a veritable cacophony in the mind and head.....and you feel torn between letting bygones be bygones, especially since more than 20 years have gone by, and the nagging fear of what if.....

What is life trying to whisper into my ear?