My 300th post...

Landmark...milestone...on my life road...

Looking back, there were a lot of lemons,

some I managed to add tequila and salt to by myself...

many times my DD fixed the shot for me...

Some lemons scarred with their acidity...

Some tried to spread the rottenness that had set into them, by osmosis...

Some were dry and hit hard...

Some were deceptively juicy...

Some I just threw away...

But the shots with tequila and salt................................

Cheers to all those times!!!

In their essence...

to my mind, Sufi music and Flamenco music are very similar - they go straight into the heart, find their way into every corner and every deep crevice and from there draw out the very heart's blood, and along with it all the fear, anger, hurt, questioning, grief, happiness, feelings of unfairness, doubt, joy,aloneness, sorrow, dark thoughts, black clouds, rainbows....and force you to look at them, and then let them go in the sheer movement of dance...

Do...

you get that gut-wrenching feeling when the kaleidoscope of colors suddenly dances into blackness??

...as if there is no next moment....

and you hold your breath and wonder if the little shards of colored light will ever come back...

then, slowly, once again the colors fox-trot back, or maybe even Charleston back...

The difference between...

Work and drudge -

Both are essentially work, but after a lot of reading and thinking, I feel that work has an element of fun in it - when you can see the fun in what you are doing, which would translate into enjoyment in what you are doing, that would be work - not saying that there won't be moments of darkness or doubt, those are in-built into everything, but the overriding feeling is one of pleasure and relish...

Drudge on the other hand, has zero fun or even zero capacity for fun, and HUGE amounts of darkness. Drudge might be paying your rent, or upkeep, or maybe something necessary (like routine housework every day all year round). The good thing is that the fall-out of drudge could be made into fun...

(Of course, what might be drudge for someone, may well be work for someone else...and vice versa!!)

And so, happy working or happy looking-for-work-in-drudge...

The non-periods of doing anything are colored by whether what you are doing is work, or drudge - work would, therefore, color periods of non-doing in happy, relaxed, stimulating, peaceful, bright colors, and drudge would color these non-doing periods in shades of grey to black.

So, check the color meter....

It's taken me so long...

to understand that each moment segues into the next and the next and the next...till they become seconds, minutes, hours, days and years of a life.

For some this happens seamlessly, and for some, like myself, it's often been a hard struggle - because life IS going to follow its path, and if you forcefully try to change its course, it's anyway going to come right back - only it would be returning over bruises and hurts and bleeding, pouring its healing powers as it comes back to the path laid down for it.

But at least the realization has happened - so, better late than never! Cheers!!

Talking about beliefs...

Everyone has a belief - those who say they don't believe in God or a supernatural Presence, or Entity, still do believe in something...maybe even believing that they don't believe anything...

The point is whether our belief makes us loving and compassionate, or astringent and severe...

Continuing with the idea of 'Confiscation...'

Every kind of relationship needs working on if confiscation is not to happen, (that is apart from the fact that if confisction is a reality, then one has to work on and through one's own secret space).

I believe that the greatest gift you can give a person is to let him/her be himself/herself without censure...

I also believe that the greatest gift you can give yourself is to accept and be yourself warts and all, faults and all, without pretense and without the need for acceptance by anyone, and absolutely not feel limited in any way...